where has the time gone??? I made a goal this year to do a better job of journaling and I think I did ok for about 3 months then life got crazy and I slacked off. The last few days, my kids have been so naughty and so funny. I have laughed so much. I was laying in bed last night and was thinking about how blessed I am and all the reasons why, and I decided that if I didn't write things then they would soon be forgotten. So, tonight I am up with heartburn and ready to vomit so I am updating my blog to try and get my mind off of feeling so crummy.

To start with, the reason I am nauseous is because I am pregnant. That happened since I last visited my blog. I am about 17 weeks along and still super sick. I wasn't sick with my first 3 pregnancies and I wonder how women can be so sick and feel so crappy and keep getting pregnant. I am about 90% positive this will be my last child. Regardless of the sex of this baby I am thinking I am done. (We will find out what we are having on January 6th I think) People ask if we will try for a girl if this one isn't a girl. My thoughts are if Heavenly Father hasn't given me a girl in 4 tries, (and whose to say I really want a girl anyway) then why would he with 5 or 6 or more unless He just felt bad for me after a while. I don't think I want a girl that bad and I know I don't want that many kids. My patience isn't that great. Plus I have 20 young women that I can to some extent call mine and that is enough estrogen and moodiness for anyone to handle. I do love them though. The problem is going to be picking a name for this baby, regardless of the sex. we have used all the boy names we like and we can't agree on a girl name.

I think the boys are excited to have a baby. They don't like that I throw up a lot but are really helpful when I start gagging when I change a diaper or something smelly like that, they all go get me a bowl to puke in. A few months ago Corbin chased me to the bathroom in Sam's Club (luckily my mother in law was with me that day) and after he watched me throw up a few times said, "Mom, I don't think we should have this baby any more, it makes you throw up way to much." How do you explain to a 5 year old that it is ok and that you can't really give it back once it is growing inside of you.
So on to the funny stuff. And the cute stuff. Levi will be 2 the end of this month. He has grown up so much the last little bit. He watches what goes on around him and then he figures out a way to do it. He is such a visual learner. He follows the other 2 around saying what they say and trying to keep up with them. After school Corbin and Gabe will be doing homework and asking me how to do things so Levi gets a book or a piece of paper and will come up to me a say "What me do here?" what do you tell a 2 year old, "Go scribble on the paper, the PAPER not the wall." He is so funny. The boys like to shovel the snow so Levi follows them around with a broom. This afternoon they went to take a present over to our neighbor for Christmas (the guys is probably pushing 50, he is single, has no kids, still lives with his mom, and my kids love him. On the way back Levi fell in the snow, sideways. I heard him screaming so I went outside an he is crying trying to get up and the other 2 are standing by him laughing at him. It reminded me of "The Christmas Story" when the kid falls with all his snow gear on. I picked him up and brushed the snow off and aside from the scratch on his cheek he was fine.

Monday night for family night we took treats to our neighborhood friends. I was driving so I didn't have to get in and out of the car. Adam decided he wasn't getting in and out either. So, Corbin and Gabe were a team. Gabe is afraid of animals and Corbin was just afraid. So Gabe protected Corbin and Corbin's job was to protect Gabe from cats and dogs. At every house they would try and decide who got to carry the bag. Levi would sit in his chair, "my turn, my carry the bag." He never got to carry a bag and he was soooo upset. He never even got to get out of his seat. It was icy on most of the driveways so it would take them about 5 minutes to walk up the drive way and then a few minutes to get the courage to knock. they kept slipping and sliding. At one house there was a cat on the porch. Instead of running away, the cat just sat there and hissed at Corbin, Gabe stayed in the car for this one. I bet we sat there for 10 minutes and all I could do was laugh. the family kept looking out the window trying to figure out what was happening and who was at their house. At a few of the houses Corbin would knock and if the curtains were open he would run to the window and wait to see someone and then start waving. If people took to long to answer, he would try and open their doors. When people weren't home it was really interesting to see where they would put the bag around the door so that it would probably never be found. I needed good laugh and that was a great opporitunity to laugh a lot. What a fun night.

Last night we went with Adam to the singles ward Christmas party. Adam is on the high council and is over the singles ward. we were eating and because we waited until the end to get our food and our seats I didn't get to sit right by the boys. Adam was sitting next to Levi and then the other 2 were on the other side of Levi. I was on the other side of the table and a few people down. A girl came up to Adam and said something like, "did you bring your little brothers with you tonight? that is so sweet." Adam just laughed and the lady said "wait who are you?" Adam replied,"who are you." she was one of the councilors wifes and was totally embarassed when she realized who he was. I was cracking up, then thought how bad would it be to have a 28 year old kid and a 2 year old. that is a lot of years to have little kids.

We are pretty much ready for Christmas. Gabe's favorite, almost famous saying these days is "Santa is gonna put you on the naughty list for that!!" We just need to wrap presents and get the stocking stuffers from santa. I think Christmas is going to be so fun with the kids this year. they are all old enough to get it and young enough to be cute about it. (and they are getting everything they want except for Mario Baseball for the Wii) I'll write about it!!

Good night and happy holidays.